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The Secrets That I Loved

These secrets were posted on PostSecret for Valentines Day, some of which I adore. Here are a few and my occasional notes as to why:

*This one had the biggest impact on me. I lost my brother to suicide almost four years ago and I still see things I want to get for him, hear things I want to tell him and KNOW he would get a kick out of and just to tell him I love him.

I love you Ian.

I'm not mad. I never was. I never will be.

I feel you with me everyday and we all love and miss you so much.

*It happens, but it's only an excuse. You just need to be willing to open your heart and try again. Stop all the lies.

*Damn right they can! And ditto to all the guys who've ever hurt me.

*To two of my most recent ex's: I could have cured you, too.

Also, TWLOHA (To Write Love On Her Arms) Day!!!

Support Suicide Awarness and Prevention!

Miss Red

Know Me

I feel like people don't really know me.
They might know I'm sarcastic and funny and tough,
But they don't know what movies make me cry, or what words are most helpful, most hurtful. They don't ask the right questions at the right times.
I just wish people were less superficial.

Walter

My internet was done for a bagillion years and to even start it up, I had to get a new laptop. It was RIDICULOUS!

I recently aquired a new love to my life: Walter.

He's a cat I found outside my front door when it was raining.

I love him oodles.

He makes me feel happy and sane.
:I feel happy and sane!:

He's effing adorable and plays all the time.
Faja adores him as well.

I started classes and I'm starting to feel more social. I was just totally alone for so long that people were just, like, foreign. Making friends is hard when I'm not working outside the home and I'm only taking one class, cause, AGAIN, I screwed up on signing up for classes, and was registered for my photography class on the other campus in San Elejo.

I was like: You've gotta be fucking kidding me!

EVERY. FUCKING. TIME!

Anyways,

Faja and I drove around aimlessly, which was fun. We went down back roads and stuff.

I'm tired now though.

That's about it.

XOXOXOX

Miss Red

Frustrated

I feel frustrated that no one gives a straight answer.
I like to know right away what's going on. It's not that hard for someone to say yes or no. To leave me hanging till close to the day we're supposed to do something, suspended by a "maybe". That's pretty fucked up.
I know it's not always intentional, or maybe it doesn't seem like a big deal, but I live alone, I don't get out a ton cause I don't know that many people, so for me it's a big let down.
Oy Vay

Blew A Fuse

I blew a fuse in my house today...
I kept thinking I'd found the fuse box... three times until I actually found it.
The first was a brinks security box, the second was something I don't know what it was that was zip-tied closed, the third was a cut out square in my wall and THEN, I finally found it. With Faja's help of course.
I couldn't figure out which switch was switch, so I switched them all. Lol.
...Damn hair dryer.

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